It is said that hindsight has 2020 vision. No, I am not referring to 20/20 vision as a term used to express normal visual acuity (the clarity or sharpness of vision) measured at a distance of 20 feet. If you have 20/20 vision, you can see clearly at 20 feet what should normally be seen at that distance. That is all good and well, but I’ve learned that after 40 that one goes out the window 🙂

I’m referring to the vision we get when we choose to learn from past experiences and mistakes and successes – everything that made us who we are. We can go through something heartbreaking and get lost in that; or, we can choose to learn – to make better choices, to accept or reject certain behaviors and attitudes, to be different, better, more. The key though is that you have to choose to learn. You have to own up to your mistakes and choose to do things differently. You have to choose to forgive.

On a side note, I am still torn by the concept of “forgive and forget”. I’m all for forgiveness but forgetting…. Remembering what we have experienced and choosing to learn the lesson is what makes us who we are, not true. If we don’t remember the event, how do we remember the lesson? If we forget all the lessons are forgotten with it and we end up making the same mistake over and over and over again. Perhaps I am wrong. Perhaps I am yet to learn how to truly forgive and forget.

Getting back to the topic at hand. 2020 Vision, is that not just the perfect way to enter a new year, a new decade even? With 2020 vision comes a lot of peace and understanding. With 2020 vision comes the reward from everything we have been through, everything that made us who we are. If we choose to learn, that is.

As mentioned in yesterday’s post, I have this supernatural excitement bubbling inside of me about this year. It is not the usual “365 blank pages waiting to be filled; 365 new opportunities to start over”, none of that. It is a peace and a knowing that we are about to be catapulted into something new, something bigger. A sense that the reward is here; no more waiting or hoping or dreaming about one day, but now. Our time has come and the universe is about to repay us for everything we have put in. I don’t quite know how to explain the feeling that I have, but it is more than just another new year.

I, of course, approached my friend Google, to find the meaning of #2020vision. WOW! The sense of excitement I had before has doubled and I now know, without a shadow of a doubt, that this will be THE YEAR.

I am sure all of you have heard of “Angel Numbers”. Simply put, Angel Numbers are sequences of numbers that carry with them guidance and meaning. If you, for instance, keep seeing the number 1234 or variants of this number it is supposedly a sign that you are on the right path and you should keep going. Likewise, 1111 and its variants (1/11/1 or 11/11, for instance, means that you are on a path of spiritual enlightenment and your intuition and insight is at a heightened state. Now, I know that not everyone believes in this, but in a way, there is a lot of sense in it for me. The world, the universe, everything operates by numbers. It is thus easy to believe and understand that each number carries with it a specific vibrational meaning that goes beyond a simple quantity.

2020 in Angel Numbers
This is where the ‘wow’ starts! Buckle your seatbelts, this is going to blow your mind.

You are welcome to go read this article for more on this, but in short, it is all about faith and trust and compassion; about building relationships and developing your love language. It’s about letting go of insecurities and just trusting that everything will be OK. It is about passion and self-awareness. It is about hope and confidence. It truly is the year of calm and serenity and taking a step back to pause, listen and then plot your next step on your journey

The part that really got me going was when I read about the year 2020 in terms of numerology. The year translates to the number 4 (2+0+2+0). It is a year that brings huge potential for personal growth. Very important here: potential. We have to choose to listen and be guided and learn and grow. The choice is always ours to make. Now, you can stop reading now and say you are not interested in this mumbo-jumbo. It is your choice. Or you can choose to just look at a couple of interesting facts I have discovered about my life, pertaining to the number 4

The year 1993 (1+9+9+3 = 22. 2 + 2 = 4) That was the year I discovered that I want to write. The year I discovered that writing is my one sure way of expressing what goes on in my mind, to express the words I can not say. It was also the year that I stood with a cocked 9mm to the head of a drunk, passed out monster and it wouldn’t fire, which I believe to be nothing other than divine intervention.

The year 2002 (2+0+0+2 = 4) That was the year my Luka was born. The light of my life and, if a prophecy is something to go by, the light of The Way to many people. My shining star

The year 2011 (2+0+1+1=4) The year that I left my husband after a relationship of 13 (1+3=4) years. The year I decided to take back my life and take control and live. Sadly it took me another 4 years after that to learn a couple of valuable lessons. I could have avoided a lot of heartache and pain had I learned earlier, but maybe those 4 years were part of my path and it definitely contributed to and made me who I am today. I am in my 4th relationship since then and this year will be our 4th year together. In fact, in the 4th month of this year, on 23/4/2020 (2+3+4+2+0+2+0=13. 1+3=4) it is our 4th anniversary. Add to that that it is a leap year (2 +9 + 2 = 13. 1 + 3 = 4)…

Winter, Spring, Summer, Autumn.
North, East, South, West
Earth, Wind, Fire, Water
All sequences of four that regulate our existence

I don’t know if anyone else will understand my excitement. I don’t know if it is all mumbo-jumbo.

What do I know?

I know that for this year I choose to embrace the fact that the number 4 is prominent in my life NOW in this year that is a 4. I choose the accept that every previous “4” year of my adult life has brought with it a positive change. Not always nice or easy or something that I understood at the time, but with 2020 vision, it was all positive in that I have grown and changed

So I welcome this year with open arms and #2020vision. I choose to stop and listen, I choose to accept and adapt to change, I choose to live to my full potential and make the best of it, and if I should fail, I want you to remind me of these words.

May 2020 be your year xx